As always, this is rough draft, not edited. Enjoy the pure energy of this piece. In particular I love her contemplations about the haunting quality of joy. Asking about the difference between highs - joy - celebration - happiness. In particular, I appreciated (as a former theater person) her analogy for a relationship: paralleling it to the acts of a play.
I see myself as a sophomore at UW in Bascom Hall, 2nd floor, outside the door to one of the theater department offices. Door closed--dark inside--hall empty--the list is posted on the door: “Juno and the Paycock” by Sean O’Casey Cast List: Juno…..Donna Stapf. Heat and tingling rushes through my body. My stomach is doing somersaults with joyful nausea. All is silent ‘cept my heart banging beats.